Sometimes I wonder Lord; Am I in the right profession, my heart yearns to be an entrepreneur but my body can’t seem to make the move to be…what I desire to be.
People talk about the “great potential money” to be made as an accountant…especially within the financial services…but when I hear this all that goes through my mind is…is it worth it?
Is it worth giving my whole life to an organisation and getting paid a large sum of money that I won’t even have the time to spend?
Is it worth it not having a life for a very long time (probably for as long as the span of my career) in the name of having a J-O-B (just over broke!).
Is it worth the hassle, toiling morning and night at something you know will never be yours regardless of what you do(even EDs are sometimes forced to resign)?
I keep saying I want to be an entrepreneur but the fear of the unknown alone will not let me lift a finger in that direction.
And the: what ifs…yes what about the ifs…
What if it was a big mistake?
What if I can’t pay my bills because I’m running at a loss?
What if my company never grows?
What if I turn to a glorified example of a one man business?
What if I don’t know what I’m doing…?
Now the last what if bothers me beyond words…
I say I want to be an entrepreneur…
I desire it…I crave it…but if you ask me what I want to do…I can guarantee you that my response will be I DON’T KNOW!
How can you not know you ask? But I really don’t know! All I know is I want to be an entrepreneur…not just an anyhow kind of entrepreneur…I want something to differentiate me from the normal market seller…I want my business to outlive me…I don’t want to establish a business just because it is the reigning avenue of making money…IT boom…Property boom…well every boom will eventually burst!...I want a business like coca cola…a business that is like salt to the world… (Can’t do without it type)…but I really don’t know what to do.
Someone said I should just get into a business…any business and if I fail…I fail! But I say why should I start something to eventually fail in it? … I guess the fear of failure is making me think this way.
I have prayed…I have prayed and I have prayed some more…maybe it’s because I spend short period of time in prayer at any point in time…may be I should have a retreat and talk to God more about this…
I want to be an entrepreneur, but I don’t know what I want to do, I am scared of failing before I start but I also know that if I don’t take this dive…I may never be chanced again…
Part of me likes the idea of a 9-5 where my salary is secured…but another part of me knows I can do better than that…
I know I need help…and I need it fast…Can someone help me?