To be...or not to be?

Sometimes I wonder Lord; Am I in the right profession, my heart yearns to be an entrepreneur but my body can’t seem to make the move to be…what I desire to be.
People talk about the “great potential money” to be made as an accountant…especially within the financial services…but when I hear this all that goes through my mind is…is it worth it?
Is it worth giving my whole life to an organisation and getting paid a large sum of money that I won’t even have the time to spend?
Is it worth it not having a life for a very long time (probably for as long as the span of my career) in the name of having a J-O-B (just over broke!).
Is it worth the hassle, toiling morning and night at something you know will never be yours regardless of what you do(even EDs are sometimes forced to resign)?
I keep saying I want to be an entrepreneur but the fear of the unknown alone will not let me lift a finger in that direction.
And the: what ifs…yes what about the ifs…
What if it was a big mistake?
What if I can’t pay my bills because I’m running at a loss?
What if my company never grows?
What if I turn to a glorified example of a one man business?
What if I don’t know what I’m doing…?
Now the last what if bothers me beyond words…
I say I want to be an entrepreneur…
I desire it…I crave it…but if you ask me what I want to do…I can guarantee you that my response will be I DON’T KNOW!
How can you not know you ask? But I really don’t know! All I know is I want to be an entrepreneur…not just an anyhow kind of entrepreneur…I want something to differentiate me from the normal market seller…I want my business to outlive me…I don’t want to establish a business just because it is the reigning avenue of making money…IT boom…Property boom…well every boom will eventually burst!...I want a business like coca cola…a business that is like salt to the world… (Can’t do without it type)…but I really don’t know what to do.
Someone said I should just get into a business…any business and if I fail…I fail! But I say why should I start something to eventually fail in it? … I guess the fear of failure is making me think this way.
I have prayed…I have prayed and I have prayed some more…maybe it’s because I spend short period of time in prayer at any point in time…may be I should have a retreat and talk to God more about this…
I want to be an entrepreneur, but I don’t know what I want to do, I am scared of failing before I start but I also know that if I don’t take this dive…I may never be chanced again…
Part of me likes the idea of a 9-5 where my salary is secured…but another part of me knows I can do better than that…
I know I need help…and I need it fast…Can someone help me?

Comments

Anonymous said…
I think you have started the plan the right way...by praying on it. Don't stop praying. But you must also do. Do some research in your free time on what interests you, what you think the world needs, how you can help people and let the ideas fly.

Brainstorm a lot. Write down every idea, even if it sounds ridiculous, because it might be the stepping stone to something life-changing. Read Favoured Girl's post here.

I can totally understand the desire for the security of a 9-5 and the fear of the unknown. I think a good compromise at this stage might be to be an entrepreneur on a part time basis (that's where you might find Favoured Girl's post helpful). But seriously, explore and don't be afraid to fail. Fear of failure tends to paralyze many of us and keep us from realizing our full potential, but if you ask those who have done great things, they will tell you that they had some setbacks and failures before making it big.

You can do it.

(PS - new blog address for me: http://goodnaijagirl.com)
NoLimit said…
Thanks girl,I sure will do ss you'vee said!
tobenna said…
Sweetheart (and I'm hoping you are a she)
Just do it.
But, don't just do it. Do it well. research, market survey, talk to successful entrepreneurs. Not just entrepreneurs.
read this too....
Habbakuk 2:2/3
Favoured Girl said…
I totally feel you on this post. I trained as an accountant as well and about a year ago, I started questioning if I was in the right job too! Soon I realised it's not something I'm passionate about so I'm leaving it to do something else.
You can discover if you are in the right job or not, simply by asking: do I see myself happy and fulfilled in this job in 10 years' time? If the answer is no, then start thinking of other options straight away. I would suggest you do some research on yourself, make a list of the things you really enjoy doing, skills you can easily pick up, what your strengths are and what keeps you motivated. Then start thinking of the kind of business you want, would you be selling a product or a service? Do you have a ready market? Perhaps it's something creative and unique. Think hard and do your research.
But above all, keep praying and asking God to open your eyes and the answers will come to you. All the best and I look forward to good news! Stay blessed. FG
tankojjetty said…
THE 1ST STEP IS THE MOST DIFFICULT ONE...
MY DEAR U'VE TAKEN IT...
U'RE ACTUALLY CONTEMPLATING BEING AN ENTREPRENEUR...

THE NEXT THING TO DO IS...
WAT CAN U SELL...ITS THAT SIMPLE...
THEN CAN U SELL IT IN A DIFF WAY...
DONT WORRY ABT WHO WILL BUY...U JUST NEED 1% OF ANY MARKET TO BUY...
THEY'LL LITERALLY BEAT A PATH TO UR HOUSE...

THEN U DONT NEED TO DIVE IN...
I HAVE A JOB AND I'M ALSO RUNNING A MOBILE DATING SERVICE...SEE

THEN U'RE GOING TO LEARN ALOT..
I WOULD HAVE SAID "FAILED" BUT SEEMS U'RE SCARED OF THE WORD...LOL

and dont overanalysis...
get the lil info u need and get off ur bum...
u've got work to do...
see u at the top
Chari said…
Let it go...

"He that loveth is life shall lose it...."

Remember Peter? Jesus said Lunge into the deep...

Pray, seek God's face and set forth...he will ur wings and ur guide...it is well love...
NoLimit said…
@Tobenna: Thanks so much for the advice...I actually checked the Passage and I got the journal!I am so running with it!

@Favoured girl:I really appreciate this,will do...more like I am doing as you have said!

@tankojetty:Thanks for the encouragement...you're so right about the word "fail" I abhor it!

@chari: You are so right!to be honest,sometimes I think about the job security etc I'll be losing...but the truth is...this girl is making this move...regardless!
BacktoNaija said…
Hi babes, I like your dreams ;) it sounds like you want to be an entrepreneur! Attack the fear. The drive you've got will make you a success no matter how many times you stumble!
Perhaps you should read "What Color is your parachute?" I found it a useful guide on how to discover and live out one's dream career or business.

I think sometimes the answers to prayers can come in the form of an increased desire or restlessness to do (or not do) the thing I'm praying about.
Buttercup said…
im not one to talk right now cos i DO NOT want to be an entrepreneur, i want to be 'safe' wit my 9-5, monthly payin job, BUT u on the other hand hav the desire, u just need to be pushed..n most successful people today ddnt hav it easy..if u fall(God forbid), get up, dust urself n try again!

i shud be tellin myself this..lol
Afrobabe said…
I do a 9 to 5...planning to start a masters soon but I still ask myself how long I can get up at 6am....especially when the kids come...
aloted said…
men i am totally feeling this post..i get these same thoughts as well!!! it needs a lot of prayers..and God is showing me wat to do..just started my business about 2 weeks ago (am still working though)..its going slowly but i believe that God will bless my business..

keep praying and then act! it is not easy but God dey!!!
NoLimit said…
Wow thanks for this post aloted...I just saw it now!I'll keep praying and I know I will be answered by His grace...

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